maybe i didnt have it so bad...

so last night jon and i started our labor and birthing classes at evergreen hospital...we were both pretty anxious when we arrived...but it made it all the more real...the class had probably like 20 or so couples -- of which only 3 (counting us) are having girls...it was really cool being around people that are due roughly the same time as me and hearing their likes and dislikes about pregnancy -- but what i loved most was hearing jon talk about his emotions during the past 8 months...he doesnt seem like a sappy guy, but hearing him talk about the ultrasounds made my heart melt...i kept my eye out on all the girls comparing myself against them -- saying things like "wow, now her belly is big" or "she is so tiny all over" and "she doesnt even look pregnant" -- jon had to remind me that everyone is different and then i stopped.

the first part of class was spent going over the anatomoy and showing how the baby is supposed to get the heck out of there...talk about wowza...but i now know cool things like 5-1-1 (when your contractions are five minutes apart, lasting for 1 minute, for the duration of an hour -- thats when im supposed to call the hospital/doctor)...after our break we watched a 70's style birth -- this lady was outta control and i couldnt stop giggling...it felt like middle school all over again, and it didnt really help that jon said that the woman in the video looked like the guy on million dollar listing...at that point i couldnt stop laughing...HOWEVER, after watching the video -- im really wishing i was still having to have that c section...i really dont know if i can do it...the entire birthing process seems really scary, and if i would have seen that video before being pregnant, i may have had my tubes tied at like 16, lol...after a long discussion after the video regarding contractions and differnt methods of dealing with them the instructor gave us some time to relax -- and during that time -- she made the guys give the pregnant women back rubs -- and jon thought he was going to get out of it for one night ;) -- and then i layed there in his arms as he moved from side to side, and i dont think i have been that relaxed in a long time...or more in love...by having him there with me, supporting me, i realized how great of a guy i have and im lucky to have him in my life and to be the father of little ella madison...